I'm writing a book!! I cannot believe I'm even writing those words, much less sharing them with the public. I've been on this endeavor for the last month and I am finally comfortable enough to share it and tell the world. It's strange. I've always wanted to be a writer. Ever since I was young, writing was the one thing that came easily to me. And I remember the moment I stopped. When my mother read my diary. Yes, I was that kid. I kept a journal and put every thought I ever had in it. when I learned that she'd not only read it, but shared pieces of it with others, I wanted to die. And I stopped journaling and writing after that.
There were a few brief moments when I would write for myself after that, but I was never confident enough to share it. I kept all of my ideas on the back burner. They finally caught fire to the rest of my brain.
I went through a lot earlier this year that has made me re-evaluate the way my life has been heading. I've had to deal with a lot of skeletons that have been lurking in silence and eventually burst forth. In allowing those skeletons loose, all of the thoughts and ideas I've buried came out as well. I wasnt able to sleep. Everything I'd hid and restricted was bubbling to the surface. I finally put some of the ideas down on paper.
And the usual happened. Once I decided to let everything out and clear up the clutter in my mind, I was able to breathe. My husband and I got married. I made a major decision about my career. Everything has been falling into place ever since I started writing. I made a list of all of the ideas I'd ever had. I went over it and laid out plot lines and timelines for some of them. I've been waking up at all hours of the night writing 2,500 words at a time. But it's the lightest I have ever felt. Ironic since Ive gained 10 pounds in the last 4 months.
But I am now ready to embark on this maiden voyage of writing a book. I can't believe how enjoying and fulfilling it is to embrace it entirely, and I can't wait for the end result. And I can't wait to share it.
xoxo
Rita
