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I'm writing a book!!  I cannot believe I'm even writing those words, much less sharing them with the public.  I've been on this endeavor for the last month and I am finally comfortable enough to share it and tell the world.  It's strange.  I've always wanted to be a writer.  Ever since I was young, writing was the one thing that came easily to me.  And I remember the moment I stopped.  When my mother read my diary.  Yes, I was that kid.  I kept a journal and put every thought I ever had in it.  when I learned that she'd not only read it, but shared pieces of it with others, I wanted to die.  And I stopped journaling and writing after that. 

There were a few brief moments when I would write for myself after that, but I was never confident enough to share it. I kept all of my ideas on the back burner.  They finally caught fire to the rest of my brain.

I went through a lot earlier this year that has made me re-evaluate the way my life has been heading.  I've had to deal with a lot of skeletons that have been lurking in silence and eventually burst forth.  In allowing those skeletons loose, all of the thoughts and ideas I've buried came out as well.  I wasnt able to sleep. Everything I'd hid and restricted was bubbling to the surface.  I finally put some of the ideas down on paper. 

And the usual happened.  Once I decided to let everything out and clear up the clutter in my mind, I was able to breathe.  My husband and I got married.  I made a major decision about my career.  Everything has been falling into place ever since I started writing.  I made a list of all of the ideas I'd ever had.  I went over it and laid out plot lines and timelines for some of them.  I've been waking up at all hours of the night writing 2,500 words at a time. But it's the lightest I have ever felt. Ironic since Ive gained 10 pounds in the last 4 months.

But I am now ready to embark on this maiden voyage of writing a book.  I can't believe how enjoying and fulfilling it is to embrace it entirely, and I can't wait for the end result.  And I can't wait to share it.

xoxo
Rita